Saturday, December 11
my parents' bbq just ended. had hell starting the fire. i don't know why.. but it started in the end. i oppose the use of useless firestarters. how about solid fuel? that's something i'm used to! jean kept wanting to pour oil over the charcoal and set everything on fire. hahaha. i know she won't be reading this anytime soon, but thanks jeanie for coming over today and keeping me company! =D i do love you! even though you play with my phone and take crappy pictures! hee. yeah we stood in the pool toilet taking crappy pictures. saved one of them as her caller id picture. church tmr.. sigh. sunday school is so weird without my sister. shall wear her clothes tomorrow again =) might as well.. then going to buy a black formal shirt after that. shall bring the black pants along to see if they match. i think blackblacktinsel for carolling is really cool because it looks like we're singing to demons in hell. i strongly oppose green and red. do i look like a bloody elf to you??
4e6, i miss you!!! i wish i had the security of knowledge that i'll return to school and see all of you.. and it frightens me that i'll be looking at thousands of new faces. it frightens me that we're now past tense. but i'm not going to spend forever walking forwards and looking backwards, back at us. i'm gonna move on, and next year on the fourth of june when we meet again.. i won't cry. because the only thing in life that doesn't change is change itself. can i say this again? i love you.
it must've been love.
10:04 pm
xoxo
